So it’s important that I’m honest with myself and other people…….. I had a very strong commitment with a potential sponsor to get 30 days clean in order for him to sponsor me. I smoked weed 3 times over the last week and I started to justify and anticipate my 30 day chip since I wasn’t shooting up anymore. But I’ve been uncomfortable mentally since I smoked. I’ve kept telling myself that I haven’t relapsed but that’s just me taking my will back and unwilling to accept reality. That’s who I was in my addiction but not who I want to be anymore. Hopefully this helps someone today and here’s to 4/20 being my new sober date🤣
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I am 29 months recovery. I don’t and won’t smoke weed but I am taking medical weed only at night for chronic pain. I was worried about this even though the license was given to me by a doctor. I was told many people in recovery use medical for medical reasons. Not beating myself up. My choice was alcohol. My first sponsor is old time sponsor she wanted me to start over my count. My friend in recovery has a sponsor who also does medical at night for pain. I will not take during the day will not drive and No desire to drink. My other choice was vice. Which one would someone choose
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Thank you Nancy! It all comes down to the individual and our personal moral compass. I can tell myself it’s harm reduction and it’s ok bc I’m not but sticking a needle In my arm, but I asked someone I respected to sponsor me and he told me to get 30 days clean and he would. Lying and deceiving to get that outcome is a big part of why I’m here. I have to stay focused and face consequences when I don’t. Plus my higher with me so I have nothing to fear. If it works for you, I’m elated. Nobody should have to go through the pain that brought us to our darkest times. I wish you all the best in your recovery and thank you for you’re input
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Don’t let smoking weed diminish what you did accomplish bc I know how hard that sh!t is to stop. I think being 100 clean and sober is best when possible but medical marijuana and even pain meds are needed for certain people during certain times. But if it made u uncomfortable then for you it sounds like a 4-20 clean date be smoking good date lol
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I have a problem with weed since I used to without a perscription get high often and at inappropriate times. It also inevitably leads to me picking up a drink which is the bigger problem. For me, I define sober as no weed, no booze.
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Those were exactly my sentiments and I just needed to put them out into the universe and be unapologetically honest. For me, the substance isn’t the issue. Bc marijuana is an amazing thing! But process of using it is and tells my brain that “I like this and I can handle this, why not try something that you like even more” and it’s starts the maddening cycle of addiction. I don’t judge or hold grudges against people that manage it. I can’t
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Thank you.
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