Congratulations on 90 days. That’s awesome. Relapsing will only make matters worse. Reach out to who ever you can. Go to meetings. Sobriety isn’t a joke and needs to be worked on daily. Watch informational videos. Those always helped me. Plus my friend just had a liver transplant at 40 years old because of drinking. That in itself is a reason to stay strong. She is going through h*ll right now because her body wants to reject the liver. Alcohol isn’t worth your life.