I hadn’t had a sip of alcohol since April 30th…I am so delusional that I convinced myself I could microdose on alcohol. So I drank a little here and there for the past 2 weeks. I found myself right back in the same place i had to pick myself up from. Where do I go from here?
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Don't beat yourself up. Sometimes, you have to take a step back before you can go 2 steps forward. You can learn so much from a relapse.
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You said microdose alcohol. That’s a new one. Me? I pick up its megadose to the max. No micros in my world. Shake it off, get plugged into local recovery. We’ve all been there. Stay in the day. One minute, hour, day is all that matters.
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Read page 30 of the A.A. Big Book. That really explains it.
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for me, it’s the first drink that gets me drunk. the phenomenon of craving kicks in since i am allergic to alcohol and i have no idea where it will take me. if i do not continue drinking, i will obsess and be even more miserable my mental obsession will kick in. where you go is a meeting try and put together 24 hrs 
There's nothing to do but dust yourself off and try again. I've relapsed a lot of times and spent a lot of time beating myself up about it. It wasn't helpful to do that, and often, I ended up drinking about feeling bad about relapsing... on and on. If there's something you can learn from the experience, take it, otherwise don't look back
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Welcome back
I've been trying to convince myself that i can control my alcohol intake for a long time. The truth is that I can. We've got to stop this
Thanks for sharing! It’s a great service to us all. Yeah I did what you did too many times to count. Finally I got super serious about my program. I made my sobriety my number 1 priority in life. Then life got easier and much better.
Are you working with a sponsor?