Im so ashamed with myself and feel super guilty & the regret, i relapsed 2 1/2 months, Im now 8 days sober and doing my best going to meetings and such but knowing by dr that i almost died this relapse scares me because i dont want to die but the thoughts havebeen there knowing i lost all my family again! Dont know if i have the strength to rebuild!!!! Any advice would be great on how to handle all these emotions
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Cassie, thank you for being brave enough to share this. First off—8 days sober is a HUGE deal, especially after something that scary. A relapse doesn’t erase who you are or the strength it took to come back. Shame and guilt are loud early on, but they don’t get the final word. The fact that you’re going to meetings, asking for help, and choosing life right now says everything about your strength—even if you don’t feel it yet. Rebuilding feels overwhelming when you look at it all at once, so don’t. Just focus on today. One day, one choice, one step. You’re still here for a reason, and you are absolutely not alone in this. Keep going—we’re rooting for you
It’s always darkest before the dawn. You’re here for a reason. You can do this!
I have so been there. Many times. The first thing you need to do is congratulate yourself for eight days. I mean, we take this a day at a time, an hour to a time a minute, etc.. take this relapse as a lesson and try to figure out what got you to pull that trigger. Was it boredom? Did you feel like you had things under control?
It is so easy for anybody on the outside to say well, you should’ve just not drank/used. Unfortunately, that is not how we are wired.
We totally have your back. I am no pro at this, but if you need someone to talk to, I’d be glad to help.
Just take it a step at a time.
Take care and be kind to yourself. You’re not alone.