Getting back to meetings so tired of falling back, woke up hungover today had to take a sick day… i hate this!
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Sindel, I’ve been where you are to many times! I was so sick and tired of the constant relapses.
The good news is that you don’t have to ever feel like this again!
I finally got very serious and made my sobriety the number one priority in my life.
I went to AA meetings every single day, got sponsored, did 12 steps multiple times, did service work and made new sober friends.
I’m here if you want to talk
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I have done that many times...don't give up...now I remind myself about the consequences of drinking and the benefits of nmbeing sober...my fiance and I are on day 27..you can do it
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Just keep going at least you are reaching out to people we all have been there just keep getting up and going forward
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I encourage you, beg you to please, please look up Annie Grace!!! I read her book called This Naked Mind & her 2nd book called The Alcohol Experiment. She has a paid program called the PATH which is truly fantastic but if you can’t afford that then just borrow her books for free at the library. She has a podcast that is free & she also has an app that you can download on your phone for free called This Naked Mind Companion App where there is a nice community of support. She also answers reader’s questions for free on YouTube. Her science based & compassion led advice is LIFE changing!!! It worked for me & I love the psychology & support behind it. She will help you forgive yourself too. Check her out !!! And good luck 
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Stop making relapse ok. It’s not ok. Does it happen , yes sure it does. But only by those that don’t do the work and do it honestly. I’ve been sober for 22 years. Do you know how many people I’ve seen die because they think an open door policy exists in the rooms ? This thing started as a closed door and you hand to qualify to enter a meeting What? Because dudes answer women’s questions, which is wrong and people that think it’s all good to relapse as they please have watered down what so many have worked hard to. Hold
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Pope ~~ huh???
Amazing support here! Sindel, I’m so sorry you’re feeling this way. It’s tough, but this moment doesn’t define you. Be gentle with yourself, you deserve it. Keep reaching out.
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My first sponsee got 30 days and went out Friday. We have formed enough of a relationship that we will go again. My relapse after a few months pushed into a deep spiral of shame and I disappeared into a bottle for about a decade. Just don’t do that. I got a mere five hundred and change days, but in all reality you and me only got 24 hours 
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You only fail when you give up
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