Relapsed, again ๐ฎโ๐จ My mind says no with one personality, then another takes over and says yes. How do you beat your anti-self?
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This happens to me all the time. I recently had that thought like do I have 2 different personalities or just no control of myself at all. Meditation has helped me with control.
I threw away my vape today though. Just take one little step tomorrow in the right direction and donโt beat yourself up 
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I beat myself up a lot, thanks for your message
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I know I speak so down to myself. Nothing is ever good enough. So hard on myself!
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Bro I canโt agree more! Iโve noticed it happens when I start to feel really good again and think I can handle it
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Yuuup, exactly
Get back to meetings share
Me too!!
Great Job!
Ahhhhh. I hate the anti-self. I have let that mindset win a few times, every time it has lead me down the wrong path I want to be on. So when that voice starts talking, I just start remember why I quit and how many times I thought I could handle one drink. I canโt handle one drink. one is too many and a thousand is never enough.
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Stay strong brother!!
Itโs a process. In 30 years of recovery Iโve had two relapsesโฆ
Itโs a program of action!
I need to pray called another alcoholic or get myslef to a meeting ..
Personally for me Iโve learned to stay out of my own way .
Take action !!๏ฟผ๏ฟผ๏ฟผ๏ฟผ๏ฟผ
You beat that by going to meetings, meeting sober people, giving yourself over to something bigger than yourself. This higher power doesnโt have to be God if you donโt believe in him. It can be anything you need it to be as long as you recognize that this anti-self is much smaller than your higher power and that your anti-self hasnโt made one right decision at all. It is your true self that means so much and can handle this and beat it. Grace be for you wherever that comes from for you. You can get back up, dust yourself off and rise high!!!!
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Get outside and walk.
Help someone else.
Meditate.
Journal.
Practice positive affirmation.
Write down a list of all the fucked up things you did high/drunk. Refer to the list often.
Teach yourself something new.
Hold off the urge to use until tomorrow. When you make it to tomorrow without using, repeat.
Just play the tape. You know the misery youโll be back to when you do. You feel better because youโre caring for yourself. Itโs easy to forget that. Stay strong brother. Itโs over when you say itโs over.
People, places, and things. Must not hang out with the same olโ people in the same olโ places doing the same olโ things. Even if that means olโ friends or even family. Clean break.
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I love this! Thank you for sharing this!
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Donโt blame yourself. Step aside and look at situation. What and why? Do better next time
I beat this by watching "How addiction hijacks the brain."
I learned to take my mind out of my body with daily meditation.
This allowed me to not let my familiar past become a predictable future.
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