This was a few days ago. I can't get the images of people and things melting together, all trying to hurt me, out of my head. Even after getting it out of my system the fear and trauma is still inside my body. I really need to find a therapist asap. Any quick tips or hacks on how to deal with the physical fear and trauma my body has memorized? Logically I can talk it out but my body doesn't believe me.
Hi Justin. First I must say everyone is different. We all react in different ways to different substances or the lack there of when sobering up. Most however ( and you may know as well ) get introduced to the "shadow people" after a few sleepless nights. Sleep deprivation will do crazy things to the mind and obviously the drug will as well. Forgive yourself for the relapse, go to meetings, certainly someone locally in your NA or even AA sometimes will get you headed in the right direction finding a counselor, IOP, in patient, MAT as needed. As far as when the thoughts or memories stop I'm sorry to say, at least for me you may always have at least a remembrance. Not necessarily a bad thing if you remember it's not a place you want to go back to. I've been clean now over 7 years from multiple substances, alcohol etc and from drugs I just "played around" with like amphetamines. Even though my experience with them was short lived I am still to this day convinced certain people were watching me, at some point cameras or some type of listening devices ( maybe my own cell phone etc) were used to listen in on what I was doing etc. Now that it's been several years I know logically this is not true however at times it still feels real if I think back on it. Just know time will pass. You will recover and having this experience may just be a blessing to you and a reminder to never go back to that dark place. It's not worth it. Hope this helps.
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