Relapsed I’m still pushing forward it’s just the way I hurt 
my love ones the most that ask when am I going to get it right actually I had it right but now I see the necessity of keeping active so anyone in Charlotte NC or anyone that can give me advice please 
do because this guilt is beating me up inside
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We are here for you the guilt will pass, keep apologizing to your loved ones and attend a meeting. I am doing online AA meetings and so far so good. One day at a time!
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Remember, the only failure is giving up completely. Keep your head up and make it through today
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Amen
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I know several people where the only thing they did right was kept coming back! Grab a hold of someone or a group of people and stick with them! We can do what you can’t
I wonder about that word relapse! I feel like in till I had worked the first nine steps as per the book I hadn’t lapsed yet! You can’t relapse, and tell you have lapsed
until you have lapsed! I don’t know your situation you you may have had 20 years but anyway that’s just my thinking on relapse! I don’t believe you can relapse until you’re recovered and you can’t pull Recovery out of the air
Well it was my birthday 
and I had wanted to celebrate 
and it turned into a disaster was a big mistake and no I never worked the steps with anyone was in a rehab for 2 years was clean 4 years until i meet the man from rehab relapsed kids had me again then went to Miami Florida came home was good on Christmas had a drink a month went by did it occasionally got upset and off to races I went
Guess you can Recover without working the Steps best you can, as per the Book, the Book doesn’t claim to be the only way to Recover!! It’s just in 34yrs I haven’t seen anyone otherwise! Obviously this is anecdotal and not a huge sample, but I’m still sober and clean!
My bellybutton bday is in three weeks!! I tell customer service ladies 52 if they are one the phone, and I ask if they’re single or married and the married ladies 62!! They will laugh, laugh!!
I also relapsed last night after a month sober.. it does make me feel ashamed of myself and I spent all day sleeping and angry. We can get through this. I don’t really believe in the “steps” or Aa/Na. I believe in connection being the opposite of addiction. I just want to find people to connect with. I wish you love on this journey.
Do not allow the loud voices tell you your not worthy of change. Take those thoughts captive and turn them in to a positive thought. I also relapsed after about 7yrs. I stayed out for 6 months on weed and alcohol, my drug of choice was meth. And thought it would be ok. But it wasn’t at all. I’m now back in the rooms of AA and attending service Sundays to stay in His perfect will for me
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The most important thing is your here. Relapse is awful. My last one I ended up in a rehab and medically detox and I left with an entire recovery team. A counselor, recovery coach and they set up IOP and now still do an Early Recovery Meeting. I will have 33 months 7/3.
My point in telling you this is if you are serious about stopping try building your recovery team. Go to meetings and make sober friends. So important. If you are physically addicted try getting a medication doctor to help with that. Recovery is so much work but so worth it. One Day At a Time. This can be done.
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Sorry to hear that. I can understand it must be hard for you right now. All people are weak but through the Lord we are infinitely strong. Give the Lord control and you will be fine. For you may rely on Him at all times.
Hey love! I deal with that guilt myself. I have 37 days clean today and it eats me up some days. This is my tenth time around. My family hurts for me and I had to finally realize that I was the problem. Realizing that made me sooo mad at myself! I went to a meeting and shared about that ish! I got love that I didn't think I deserved. Give yourself grace and get in a meeting.
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