Well unfortunately I relapsed on alcohol after being sober for almost a year. Now i am 6 days sober. I made a mistake but im not letting this demon win. I also have been in the hospital for 6 days now due to my legs being numb and tingly to where i cant walk and I fall. Im doing alot better. My 6th day sober and I get out of the hosoital Monday so my journey is about to start once again without alcohol. I’m strong I just made a mistake.
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Please don't beat yourself up about it. The important thing is that you've picked yourself back up, and I commend you for that. You got this.
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Slips happen sweets! But you know what. You got back up! And that's a boss thing to do! Don't be hard on yourself. It's hard to stay clean and sober. You fell. But you got up again. 
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TOUGH LOVE... YOU DIDN'T RELAPSE.. YOU MADE A DECISION TO DRINK... IM IN AGREEMENT THAT YOUR DRINKING AND USING CAREER HAS BEEN RUINED. AND YOUR RECOVERY BECOMES VERY PERSONAL... UNDERSTAND THAT DRINKING IS A SYMPTOM AND NOT THE REAL PROBLEM... LET'S HAVE A A LEVEL OF SELF HONESTY...... You have what IT takes to stay sober.. but staying that way is the WORK
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I'm so glad you Are back to sobriety! I'm newer to this journey but have found looking for the lessons in my two relapses has been really helpful in understanding why I drink and makes me realize how much I benefit from not drinking. I hope you find these things to and continue your journey. I love your positive outlook. Keep going!
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Thank you very much!
Yes! thank you!
Exactly! Thank you!
Yes! I have realized some things and triggers so I I’m sure working on it! Thank you! Good luck to you on your beautiful journey also!
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Welcome back
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I agree with Joseph, you made a decision to drink. NO ONE forced a drink into your hand, mouth, throat, etc. YOU ARE NOT STRONG ENOUGH!
I apologize, maybe you are, I shouldn't speak for you. I know I'm not, and that's the point. I learned that I'm defenseless against the first drink, and work the Program. I don't know if I will come back after a relapse, and for right now am making a decision not to test what has worked for me so far one day atba time, without a relapse for over 15 years. There are a list of yets waiting for me if I decide to drink.
So I work the Program in full, not necessarily perfect. I read the book, I pray, I meditate, I work with others, I am of service, I have a sponsor to work the Steps with, I go to live meetings. I do this because I see that it works in others that have long term continuous sobriety.
My hope for you is that you try something different. If you do what you always do, you are going to get what you always get.
I relapsed/made a decision to drink a thousand times before it stuck! I made a million more decisions to not even think about quitting before that. It takes what it takes. I pray that day 7 is easier than day 6 and you keep strings days together seconds, minutes and hours at a time.
I don’t know your journey, but I know the longer I take it easy 24 hours at a time the better my world gets. I’m glad you’re back!
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I'm glad you're back Alexa.
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YES! You are strong and you are a winner. Keep going back to those meetings and talk to your sponsor every single day!
If you are hiking and you trip but catch yourself no big deal. Sometimes you sprain an ankle and have to slowly hobble down the mountain, other times you can trip and fall to your death. Sounds like you tripped caught yourself before you got hurt and walked right off that mountain. That's best case scenario and learn from it.
We've all been there ive learned. Keep up the good fight!