I relapsed and go to detox tomorrow for five days! I feel so depressed and mad at myself but I’m happy to go to detox tomorrow and start this new journey! The detox is 5 star it’s really nice and has a hot tub and pool and also a professional chef, with the best support groups and counseling! I’m very nervous to go and go threw withdrawals again! But I can’t wait to be FREE! I learned my lesson and will NEVER allow myself to do this again! Pray for me please 
I been struggling since my mother died 4 months ago it’s been the HARDEST YEAR OF MY LIFE! I will make my mother proud!
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I'm proud of you too!!! I'm sure we all are!!
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You have had to go through a difficult time, my Mom is 93 &I can’t even imagine losing her I might need to go straight to a mental hospital …proud of you you are doing the next right thing
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Sending strength your way you can do this!
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You GOT THIS! Good luck you aren’t alone!
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It'll be okay, get back on that horse.
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If u put ur mind to it and want it more than anything it will happen.
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I can relate to that pain of losing the people that are closest to you? I'm guilty of diving straight into that black hole but I wasn't any good for myself or my family? You know you're better than that and your mom would be proud that you are going to get help and you should be proud that you are taking this step, cause your worth it!
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You don’t ever have to feel this way again. Stay grateful and blessed
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I can so relate I got into alcohol a year after my mom died and boy in no time, I was physically addicted and ended up in detox and rehab 3 times from 2019-2020. Finally free from depending to stay alive and have 24 months. Amazing but very hard work. Emotional roller coaster. Just stay strong and reach out. Try meetings and get a support group. Best wishes.
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Stay longer if you can
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Don't be mad at yourself. Regrets are resentments we hold against ourselves. They are the o ly ones where the resentment hurts the one we resent. You did your best. Your best may not have been good enough. But tomorrow your best will be better. And will be every day we look at where we are going and not where we were.
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Chin up. Back at it. You’re in my 
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Proud of you! Keep coming back, It works if you work it!
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Sorry about your mom. I speak what might seem a little more harsh. I really want you to get this thing. If your mom could see you right now which I don't believe she can, she would want you to stop torturing yourself and stay sober.
Pain is temporary and so is the relief we get from taking drinks. It's called believing the LIE; that this time everything will be OK. But it never is, is it?
We have to learn to play the scene forward. You may feel good for a while but sooner or later you will be right back where you are right now, carrying around more guilt like you are right now knowing that you accomplished absolutely nothing.
Get yours recovery plans in order for when detox is complete.
Meeting makers make it.
This too shall pass!
Sending Prayers your way !!
The story was hard to read without feeling and sharing your suffering. You are making a strong choice for your own life. Good work and tough inner strength will be your super power through this addiction and recovery from a broken heart. You are going to the right place and doing the right thing for yourself and your loved ones.
You can do it!!! Keep going and don’t look back! I been clean and sober for 38 days after relapsing from being clean and sober for 3 years! I had a nervous breakdown after I ended a 18 year relationship that was very toxic, so I know how you feel! But I know you can do it and you will! Sending prayers love!
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Praying for you
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