Hello my dear friends. Sincerely.I want all of you to know how much I appreciate you. I read such wonderful candid transparent pain that used to be. To accept\nThat I am an addict.\nTook me sixty five years. I relish in Reading your stories.\nAnd gain wisdom and insight from them. We are learning how to live and not hide from ourselves anymore. Every hiccup, you might say.\nAnd not using over it is one more victory and that makes me stronger. At first, i realized tried to get sober and clean how much\nI suppressed.\nReally deep stuff and I don't know if anyone can relate , but I didn't know lauren. I have dragged all the skeletons out of my closet.\nI don't care about any retribution.The main reason I do that is to help others on this difficult journey. I have heard on good authority.(Psychologically wise) that whenever a person started self-medicating.\nIs when their maturity stopped. You are a product of your own environment.It's not a cop out , it's true. I remember sailing with my family.\n Off of the Connecticut shores.\n And my father would let me drink the rest of his beer. At age ten. I miss construed. Their smiles 
and I thought they were proud of me. Finally. You need to read gail sheeies? book " passages". I was a lost child.\n Not beaten.\n But manipulated by toxicity., shamed for wanting my mother to hold me , say something nice. Yes, we must deal with our childhood traumas.And I might still be ten years old , but i'm working on it!!
