I have over 7 months clean but I have a soul crushing resentment that I’m afraid will take me out. I’ve tried to get over it, but when I’m reminded of this individual I can’t help but plot some sort of revenge or even contemplate using.
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We are all human. Not perfect. Not saints. This resentment sounds like it will take more time to resolve if ever. That is ok. Its ok that it's not ok.
Try and figure out how to forgive yourself for not knowing how to resolve it. Start there. Take the pressure off yourself. Don't beat yourself up. Keep reaching out and don't drink/use one day at a time. It will get better.
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That person is sick too. Have you tried praying for their well-being instead of their demise?
David, your addictive brain is just adjusting to sober existence . The resentment is dramatically enhanced because your brain wants you to drink….it is not you David….just your brain….a trick i did not want to use but did anyway was to pray for the person for 2 weeks.. very night . I know what your are thinking but it does sever the tie to your irrational self…be amazing .Keith Kayle
I too have a soul crushing resentment and what helps me is thinking about the other person. Is that person suffering because of their actions? The answer is no in my case. Nothing I can do will change the other person; that person doesn't care if I drink to excess and suffer. The passage of time helps too. Good luck and please don't use!
Morning David:sunglasses: Same here Big Time. I have a Daughter I’ve only seen once when she was 1.5 years old.(She is 24 now) I also have 3 sons that I was a stay at home dad to from 2003 to 2009. Haven’t seen or heard from them since 2011. I could go but ya get the point. In my situation it was like a trusting and turning over to my Higher Power situation. There is No Way I could get to the “I Love ‘Em All” place I’m at now if it wasn’t in my Higher Powers hands. 
I feel ya! Resentment’s are the hardest! I’ve got a new resentment towards my mom every time I think about my past and realize something new that she did or didn’t do that effected me, or affects me now to this day.. people tell me to accept her for the way she is.. I know what I need to do.. it’s just seems impossible