I went to a great Refuge Recovery meeting tonight and I was asked to pick the reading. I opened the book at random as I am new to this program and its teachings. I felt this part I read deeply; a part of the reading was this:
"Though we speak of ourselves as addicts, drug addicts, se× addicts, alcoholics, food addicts, what we are really addicted to isn't the substance or the behaviors–drugs or se× or food or alcohol–but our own minds. We are addicted to that part of the mind that craves, that says we must satisfy this desire or that. Even in 12- step recovery programs that view addiction as a disease, it is said that the drugs and alcohol are only a symptom of the internal imbalance. That's why we say that our relationship to craving is the problem, not the substance or behaviors themselves."
I am struggling lately but I am also riding the wave. I am open to seeing how I may be causing suffering in my mind and how my suffering may affect others around me. With each day I wake up sober and willing to ride the waves I am working towards a healthier me and for this I will continue to be grateful for the suffering that shows me I'm growing. I will continue to be mindful and hopefully feel brave enough to share these experiences because with each experience I do share with others in recovery I find out I'm not alone and that is the beauty of the fellowship. Much love 
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