Emotions, reactions, and anger...I seemingly work on curbing rage, and I know it's mentally connected to childhood "trauma" of being yelled at by my dad and listening to him scream at my mom. Then I watch the faces of my wife and children when I react or their body language in anticipation of how I'll respond. I remember asking my dad if I could go hang out or whatever and just thinking in my head over and over and over again, "No" assuming that's what he would say, and I was a bother even asking. IDK, man...being on antidepressants and anti-anxiety, and therapy. I just don't want to over compensate and or become numb to feelings. Even over 500 days sober, feelings and wanting to NOT be in public are terrible. I'm getting ready to judge a talent contest and this is what I am thinking on.. 
