Rough Day

Mental Health
#1

I was at my meeting last night and I kept looking at Step 2 of AA:

“Came to believe that a Power greater than ourselves could restore us to sanity”

Sanity……

Two months ago, my ex boyfriend reached out to me and apologized for how things ended between us. He distanced himself from the end of October until end of May.
History is repeating itself a year later, silence once more.
I am thankful for him last April, I was able to open my eyes thanks to him. I was damaging myself on so many levels. Yes I made the decision to become sober, but had he not been in my life, I would probably be drinking as we speak.
I have to pretend as if the last 6 weeks never happened….pretend it was just a dream.
I need to restore myself back to sanity. :broken_heart:

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#2

Trust the process. Your on the right track. Keep working the steps.

#3

Everything will be fine okay just trust the process and believe okay, I believe you can do this.

#4

Stay focused on changing yourself for the better. Don’t forget the past, learn from it.

#5

Emotional sobriety is the toughest part of the journey. Those closest to us are often the ones that we do the most damage to or vice versa. The more experience I get in my journey I find certain things to be true: None of this stuff that I find so devastating, has killed me. I got married and divorced in sobriety and it hurt (mostly mentally/emotionally) but it didn’t kill me. I wasn’t drinking but the mental part was strong. I realize I have to get uncomfortable to turn to my program even more, so I chaired more meetings, I said yes when asked to speak at meetings, I prayed more, I meditated more, I reached out to other alcoholics/addicts more, I reinforced my faith in the only thing that has stopped my drinking in my 47 years here on the planet- the spiritual solution. My ex- wife reached out recently and we have a good talk, and it jams me up mentally, but I can speak and not have resentment and worry about the past or the future. I can give it to my higher power and let it go. The point is trust this power that got you here, that got you to sobriety and let life come by letting it go. Turn toward your recovery more, I didn’t regret it, I don’t think you will. I will be a better version of myself for the next opportunity and you will probably experience the same. The feelings are natural, embrace them and turn to the solution. Your share helped me today and that is what this is all about :pray:t4:

#6

I urge people to “do the do’s” and 90 meetings in 90 days. They say meeting makers make it. :pray::love_you_gesture:

#7

You don't have to pretend the last 6 weeks never happened. They did, and it's part of your story and growth. In the end, we are the sum of all our parts; the good, the bad, and everything in between.

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#8

I agree with Tony and definitely with B-rye. The bad days, the mistakes, though they don't define us, they should certainly help to mold us for better or for worse.

Ending relationships can be tough. I ended mi.e 3 years ago, and have been single ever since. I don't typically do single well. In sobriety however, I am managing it all soooooo much better.

You have a beautiful smile. I don't imagine you will be single for too long if you don't want to be. Just remember, YOU are a beautiful daughter of God most high and deserve no less than a man who speaks to you and treats you as such on a regular basis, pretty much always.

#9

When you stop drinking.. you will see things more clearly.. learn from the past and keep moving.

#10

Good for you dear. I know you will find support and love from many others especially those of us who have been through that type of experience. It may have nothing to do with who you are yet I’m sure it feels that way to you in a very real way. I don’t know what pain your partner is dealing (or not dealing) with and you certainly are wise to take care of your needs! Otherwise eventually you can be of much help to anyone else. Keep coming back.