Rough few days mental health wise. Therapist is on vacation for another week. I felt stupid when I called the emergency mental health services. Once I told them I dont feel like im a danger to myself or others they said “what do you want to happen from this conversation?” And im just like what the heck. My friends arent the best to talk to. They dont exactly get it. Living sober aint easy. Not one bit. But to this day, I will pick figuring out these problems and fighting through my worst moments over the bottle any day.
Hang in there Trevor 
Thank you, I will. As Michael Scott says “Somehow, I Manage” (The Office tv show) lol
Michael is an idiot but that’s what makes the show 

Exactly 

Call the Crisis hotline. They won’t hang up if you are seeking help, and it’s free. Just dial 988. 2 for 2 when I called them, at least a 90 minute session.
Oh my god, Ryan! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! Thank you! …. Did I say thank you? Well, thank you!
No problem. Helped me when I wanted to drink and wasn’t feeling stable.
Stay strong bro!
We're all here... everyone here goes through that shiz at one point or another.
Yeah I’m definitely a dry drunk. I drank myself straight into diabetes, so it’s a good motivator to stay on the straight and narrow. But it’s mainly feeling stable is what I struggle with at times. Thank you again, I will call them tomorrow. It’s good to know that I’m not alone in this
Ha! Same here with diabetes. Pain in the A**
Thank you Derek! Everyone has been so supportive here and it’s really perfect timing. People in recovery get it. My friends aren’t alcoholics so of course they’re not going to understand why I have these episodes all the time. Sometimes I lose sight of that fact.
Haha, you’re telling me. Those dang four lokos
I was fortunate enough to get the pancreas up and running again. What was your sugar at the day you found out?
This too shall pass! Hang in there 
Thank you! 
Hang in there. Go for a good walk or hop on YouTube and try the daily calm. Both of these help me. Keep you head up you got this.
Thank you so much! The daily calm is a youtube channel, yes?
Yea it is. Pretty good, easy meditations to help get your thoughts under control. It really helped me. You got this.
Thank you thank you thank you brother! I will definitely check it out