I spent the last two nights tossing and turning. In working step 3, I gave up a codependent relationship with a physically and emotionally abusive, truly narcissist addict. I let God take control. I had to get a restraining order which will hopefully be served today. He sends me emails and texts from various phone numbers and email addresses each day. He’s told me things like I’m not in control and he’s not going to let me just throw him. He started sending me daily video diaries of himself and it repulses me. He’s said every degrading and insulting thing I can think of to me interspersed with love bombs. He left a note on my car. Left things in my front yard. Insulted my daughter and the AA program. I used to think he was my best friend and true love. Now I can see him for what he really is and it hurts. I’m not used to being alone but it’s a part of my recovery. Recovery is no walk in the park...but I’m grateful to have a second chance at life and will continue to walk through it by faith. I go to meetings every day. Work the steps. Pray. Read. Stay in the fellowship. Take care of my daughter. Going back to work Monday. One day at a time...and one night at a time.
Think of this person/relationship as your drug of choice. Meaning that you need to totally abstain. Meaning that you can’t control it. Once you let up and give in just an inch, it slowly or quickly sucks you back in. It’s the same insanity as thinking you can control your drinking…that things will be different this time. I know it’s extremely difficult l, but you need to completely abstain from replying and engaging.
That was a great post very inspirational... Tks!
Congrats Aimee! It sounds like you're doing all the right things. I love hearing that. Sounds very similar to my story at the beginning of my sobriety. You keep doing exactly what you have been doing!
I'll tell you what was told to me, remember that you are the one who is changing (by working a program & staying sober) . He is not.
Hey there. I’m in a similar boat, but still on the dock. My BF of almost 6 years went off the deep end when I told him I was starting AA earlier this week. I have been sober 2.5 years and he thinks I’m having an affair because I “don’t need AA.” He said he wanted to smash a vintage bass guitar he has of mine and that he fantasizes about shooting himself in my bedroom. He called last night at 3am to tell me these things. He’s been suicidal before but now I know he’s been a drug, too. Good luck and strong vibes to you, dear.
I have not replied or engaged once. I’ve only gone to get a restraining order
Focus on your recovery 
Stay strong…ODAAT 
❤🩹
Aimee! Sorry to hear this is happening to you. Hang in there it gets better. Trust God will all right.
From my experience as an alcoholic and going through a divorce, I learned through AA that my actions were all based on fear and not getting what I want. Your ex maybe narcissistic but is showing all the traits of someone in fear of losing something and not getting what he wants. This is a sick man. How can I help?
Keep working your program. God first. I’ll pray for you and your family. Have a blessed day.
Prayer is always welcomed 
Let me know if the order doesn't work. I'll make him an offer he can't refuse. LOL
Yeah that’s tough to be with someone like that. I’ll keep you in prayer.
Well said!
Sorry you’re going through that… I can relate, it hurts but in my case and I guess you kind of said it too, you’re seeing the real person and not the one that they were trying to make themselves be.
Remember your worth is high!!! Take care of yourself nobody else is going to do that for you! Hope things keep looking up! Sounds like you’re doing it right with staying close to the fellowship:)
Well if all you laid out is true than it’s definitely fuel to get sober and get on with your life!
Dang… I’m sorry.
Congratulations Aimee on working a thorough Third Step! It takes a lot of courage to make these huge changes in our lives. Putting down the substances and facing “life on life’s terms” is not easy at all. Having said that, recovery is priceless. I’m both happy and excited for you! 
Aimee
All kidding aside, your ex has all the trademarks of a controller. Controllers do not like losing control and can become quite dangerous.
I highly recommend that you keep moving forward and stay as far away from him as possible. I also recommend that you stay out of relationships for at least one year. I too learned that I was codependent and my sponsor encouraged me to stay out of relationships until I could figure out who I was and what I was all about.
This can take a long time. In order for us to offer ourselves to the opposite we have to know who we are first. I also recommend that you get yourself some books on how to recognize people that are controlling so you can recognize the red flags a little earlier and not put yourself in the position that you are in right now.
Aimee, so proud of you, it’s difficult and sometimes dangerous to be in a relationship like that. You have a great plan and you can go far in recovery ❤️🩹