I relapsed again for the 3rd time and im so disappointed i cant stop beating myself up. I feel like such a disappointment. I dont want to do this or feel this anymore.
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It's ok don't beat yourself self up and it doesn't matter u still have been sober keep going
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Look at it as a new start for you. It’s not really starting sobriety again. It’s starting a new thing in your life
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I'm right there with you!!! But I refuse to give up, I'm going to a meeting this morning and starting over 
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Good for you! Here’s to starting over
I have relapsed as well. Disappointed and depressed but reading your post and the comments help knowing I’m not alone. Just have to get back on track for my physical and mental health. It’s hard but I’ve done it once and I can do it again. Best wishes to all
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All you can do is get up and start over, relapsing is normal you’re human. You can be upset and bombed out, but don’t beat yourself up. Just start over. Go to a meeting and get a sponsor. Do online zoom meetings whatever you have to do do it if you want it bad enough you will do it.
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Everything can be a lesson for growth if you are willing to let it be. In my opinion, relapse isn't failure but rather more research. I would suggest looking for what caused you to slip back into old behaviors or pushed you to use again so you can avoid it in the future or at least be conscious of it and handle it differently. The only thing that matters is that you make it back and are willing to continue making the effort to recover.
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It's ok. Relapsing is a part of getting sober or clean. Here's to day 1! You've got this. One day at a time and sometimes 1 minute at a time. 
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Remember we stay sober one day at a time. Remember you are alive and because of that you have another chance
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Good morning. I actually happened to be paralyzed/quadraplegic and am 2,760 days clean from pain killers and benzodiazepines after a heavy 12-13 year addiction. Relapse can and will happen if you don't educate yourself. It's usually an emotion that triggers us to relapse (whether it be positive or negative). If you REALLY wanna stop, you need to figure out your weaknesses/triggers and be aware of them at all times. Don't beat yourself up. Just try and focus on your weaknesses and triggers and try to avoid them as much as you can.
if you don't trust yourself, instead of thinking of the instant gratification, high or escape, try to think of the negatives. Like what you're doing to your body or the relationships with your family or friends it could ruin... You got this 
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Something I just learned today is FEAR; Face Everything And Recover! Relapse is a part of my story also. It was a blessing and I believe it brought me a lot closer to my support group and broadened it. After my relapse I found our real quick that was no longer the life I wanted, and I truly believe it happened to show me that. I'm more of a show me proof kinda gal anyway so it would have weighed on my mind. So now it's over and now we can focus on our recovery. I beat myself up as well, but don't do that we are addicts our normal state of mind is being intoxicated so being normal is different for us. We are still human and we will make mistakes, so get up dust yourself off pull up your big girl panties and get back to living your best life!!
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With every mistake try to go a little bit further
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We are all going through a difficult fight, but we are stronger than it!! Getting knocked down( relapse) is going to happen. You just gotta get back up and keep swinging!!
I relapsed a couple times also, but keep in mind, everyday your sober is a day you didn’t drink/ smoke/use, whatever. Your body, mind, soul thanks you for that
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Great news is that you never need to feel like this again! I had to make MY SOBRIETY my number one priority in life. Then everything got way easier.
Only rule is, I don’t pick up no matter what! But without the 12 steps and the sober community, it’s just me dry. And that is no fun.
I’m here if you want to talk.
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It's okay , re organize yourself . Things will get better soon . I promise .
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Don't be Soo hard on yourself, it's part of your story. Very few people are "one chip wonders" who Never turn back and relapse after they pick up that first white chip for the very first time. I just turned 50 years old 2 months ago and I've relapsed more times than I can remember, let alone count...over the last decade plus. All you can do is move forward. Being stuck in the past is like sitting in a rocking chair. It's something to do, but won't get you anywhere. Do better because you know better with each time you relapse. Just remember that often times many people don't ever make it back to sobriety and have the privilege of starting all over again. Addiction, just like depression is a very deadly disease and kills more people every day than most other causes of death combined. Best Of Luck to you!!
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Hi team, I'm working on getting one week in. Pray for the strugglers. I struggle everyday but motivated. Beat this.
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i hear you sometimes i have thoughts that this is all i’m good for
remind yourself of why
relapse is a lesson learned again keep learning keeping striving and pushing
i gets easier the longer you do it
relapse is apart of the process don’t let it over take your life !!
tap into hobbies and ground yourself
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