Can’t stop thinking about all the people close to me who has passed on from addiction and overdoses. Just can’t stop crying today. I finally went outside, felt the cold breeze across my wet teary face and that helped. Just being in nature and watching the birds helps me stay sober. I like to think when I’m in nature im with all my friends who have passed. The trees, the birds, the flowers are them.
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I never try to dwell on the past other than to learn to not make the same mistakes. We only have the future and you can change that future for good. 
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Thank you honestly I needed this reminder. I focus way to much in the past which I need to accept I can’t change it. We only can live in the now. Thank you
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It's ok to be sad 
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Be careful with dwelling too long on friends who have passed as a result of addiction. Our addictions have a cunning way of leading us back to the circus.
You're still alive. Move forward and let your recovery be an example to those who are struggling.
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That's right! We feel a full range of feelings and emotions in recovery. TWO, you are not medicating your feelings now. Thanks for sharing.
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I would numb/self-medicate myself so as not to have to feel anything
Thank you yes, I’m at least not using and pushing the problem down inside me. I am now dealing with the core problem and growing 
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Im opposite lol I would try and self medicate to try and feel something ! I felt so depressed all the time I just wanted to be happy but drugs actually rlly mess with being happy cos they deplete serotonin and dopamine levels. The feelings you can feel on drugs are all fake and man made there’s no way a human should be able to feel that high naturally…Im just glad I’m recovering and I still got serotonin left. I went to hard when I would use my poor brain /body.
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