Not doing so great right now I'm stuck between a rock being my wife and a hard place a girl I have fallen in love with and I am not strong enough for this I used again and I just want this all to end idk what to do anymore
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Well you probably already know what kind of decisions we make while using!..Sounds like you need to find a good women's group to help with your sobriety and conflict 
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Thanks
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You should go to women’s Mers and surround yourself a sponsor , get some numbers and work the program. We all have choices. It what you chose to do with it that make a decision. Good luck. Stay focused and the question is How tired are you of being sick and tired? Only you can choose!! Choose wisely and you will see your life hit 2 ways either you use and spiral and go down or you choose to stop using and everything you thought wasn’t possible happens for the greater good it’s your choice!! Good luck!!
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What is a women mers I live in a tiny town not much around here
No judgement, but I mean, you didn't just trip and "fall in love". That's something that you have been working on, so thats a bad decision being made over and over again, spending time with someone who isn't your wife.
Get in a program and work it ASAP.
Not that it makes it right but my wife stopped spending time with me
I get it. Totally no judgement
Put your recovery first or nothing else will matter or work out. Save yourself first.
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That's what I did today just told everyone I got to do for me and me only right now
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Me only is a journey!!!! Do not underestimate the power of getting on that path... it sounds like you've been entirely ready for a long time I did step six way before I got sober
Not here to pass judgement. Know your self worth before someone gets hurt, been there done that, it may feel right at the time, but truths it truly hurts. Get a sponsor pray ask for forgiveness and pick One!!! Not both someone bound to get hurt. Sad 
I don't deserve either of them tho
Don’t forget the importance of honesty. Try to practice that in all your affairs when you’re able. It will help you a lot