One of my housemates died Monday. 4 hits of Narcan, a rapid response, and the proper medical equipment brought him back. We're all struggling with the images that are burned into our brains, popping up every minute or so. Making me question my own journey 30 days (tomorrow.) For now I've won the battle... but how many 30 day chips do I have to shamefully take before I win this war?
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I don’t feel like those chips are shameful you have more courage then most people in this world be proud of yourself not shame
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Recovery isn’t a destination. It’s Just for today. I hope you can understand that. Thank you for saving him. Please talk to a therapist about the trauma you just went through. Don’t be alone with this. I understand exactly how it feels, been through it personally. You win every day when you go to bed clean.
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This can be your time brother. Prayers to you and your housemates family
The "war is won", daily.
That shouldn't make you question your own journey. It should maybe help solidify your resolve.
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So proud of you for being there.
Prayer and meditation.... Maybe a change of people, places, and things? Everyday clean is a win my friend 
Let this be a lesson in exactly what this dreadful disease is. And have gratitude that you were able to help save his life and also not needing to have your own life saved today. You are a miracle! Keep going!
The only chip that matters is the 24 hour one. It’s all anyone has and it’s based on your spiritual place. I truly believe that the 12 steps and the support of in person meetings are where it’s at. It’s entirely up to you. That’s the power you have to choose a different way of life.