So it's always Motivated to get sober -> sober for a couple months -> gets bored and relapse.
I feel as if my brain can't handle a new situation and falls back to its comfort zone. I was an alcoholic at the age 18 due to my anxiety/tremors around people. Then at the age of 23 I decided to get sober, got sober for 5 months, lost about 30 pounds I used working out to replace the fake "Happyness" alcohol brought me.
Later on my family decided to have a party, so I told myself to have fun one drink wouldn't hurt then i broke loose that one drink turns in 8 in a couple days. But I got sober again after getting out of 2 months binge drinking faze I got sober for 6 months again I get bored and relapsed. So now I am back at it from start one I regained the weight. And back to step 1. But I fear this time I'll be going back to relapsing due to the fact that when I get sober I am in a new reality where I can accept me being okay and feeling healthy isn't normal for me. So I tend to break that and go back to the reality I've known for the past 6/7years. Which is drinking and it's a battle I am tired of this time I want to be successful but it's so hard. when I reach the peak it's the place I fear most because I love being sober but is as if I am scared of it so I relapse...
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We go thru the same things Wilmer…. Go to daily meetings and try finding hobbies…. It’s hard I know but what I do is work 9to5, workout, rideshare at night for a couple of hours… the sober reality is hard but we can’t go back to the F’d up” reality
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Keep your mind where your feet are. There’s plenty of things to do to stay grounded in your body and mind in the moment. I try to get myself to meditate but it doesn’t always work so YouTube yoga can be a good middle ground, it gets you moving and slows down the crazy monkey mind (a Buddhism term)that builds up after a period of sobriety
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