Yesterday 12/19/2024 I thought I was going to lose EVERYTHING. I went to work not feeling well, tried to stick it out but I just was physically and mentally not able to do my job. So I left and checked into a hotel to get some rest and I was tossing and turning all morning. So I went to an Urgent care and that's when it happened. I have an anxiety attack. I had a full out of body moment and I was shared because I couldn't control it. I keep telling myself STOP drinking but still puck up and bottle. I'm writing this right now crying because i kno i need to stop and seek help. But all day long i think of drinking 
