I am not perfect. It’s crazy of me to think that I can save another addict or alcoholic if they’re not asking for help. Even when I asked for help I took it back. I toed the line for years. I’m lucky to be alive. But I want to help. It’s frustrating. Self help doesn’t work from my experience. Can anyone relate?
My sponsor reminded me that I need to stay on my side of the street. I have a hard time doing this. But today I had an awakening of sorts. I wrote a letter straight to my HP (God) I acknowledged that I need his help and that He is in control of all things. I lost trust and I’m gaining it back. But I MUST have God’s help AND the help from my AA Family. I cannot do this alone. Self help doesn’t work in my world but trusting God does.