Day 3 for me off alcohol - the hardest part about this is coming to terms with the person I was while drinking. I made so many excuses to hurt the only people who loved me. I've lost all my family and friends due to the choices I made while drinking. The only person who was really here for me was my partner of 4 years and I pushed him away ... I lied, cheated, treated him with no respect. Chose to hang around with people who never really cared about me instead. It wasn't until he was finally ready to walk away that I realized what I had lost. And yet once again, he has decided to stay with me and provide me with a place to live so long as I can stay sober. The amount of guilt I feel is what's making me want to drink. I'm peeling back these layers of myself and every layer looks worse. I'm finally reflecting on what an awful person I have been and it's near impossible to distract myself from these thoughts. But I am trying. Because I never want to be the person that I used to be. But she will always be apart of me and it's really difficult to accept that.
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Yep. I’m here.
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I have been there too … we feel guilty and that’s a good thing because it causes us to want to change .. my partner gave me the same ultimatum and it lead to many years of soberiety … I have relapsed along the way and lucky for you and me we found this app … I’m
On day 2 and I try to forget the things I have done … try not to be so hard on yourself !!
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Definitely been here many times before. Been a raging binge drinker for the last couple of years & have countless embarrassing stories that lead to me losing many relationships. Be gentle with yourself & take every day as it comes. I know it’s hard, I’ve got many “day 1’s” under my belt, but we can do this.
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I second this.