You said I'd never be a leader
You said I'd never wear a crown
If I wanted to be someone
I should learn to settle down
I tell myself
(You'll never go further)
I warn myself
(You'll never be better)
You don't know me that well
I made it to the end
I nearly paid the cost
I lost a lot of friends
I sacrificed a lot
I'd do it all again
'Cause I made it to the top
But I can't keep doubting myself anymore
No, no
I can't keep doubting myself. No
-queen Mary J. Blige
Keep up the good work. Mary Blige is also in recovery!
The race to be our own perfect isn’t a sprint, it’s a marathon. The self doubts are there but each step you take is a lot louder I find.
Although I do agree, I no longer strive for perfection. The song simply echoes my feelings on doubts. before; they were quite mentally debilitating to a point I was just still. now, just like sadness, I treat it similarly to any other emotion. Just acknowledge them and keep pressing on mindfully or as best i can🤷‍♀️ idk just overall in a weird headspace - recovery surely has its highs followed by extreme lows. Meh.
No doubt. Recovery is a journey for sure. But I find if I relapse, my sadness worsens exponentially. Anyhoo…I love music. I’m actually a musician and music always takes me away to a happy place.
Relapse is no option for me.
& most definitely, music is everything- ironically, the best listener
Yea. Me neither. Been there once…never again. I play in a band with a couple of other guys in recovery. We call the band “one more for the road”. Lol.
