Set fire to everything around me...again

Let me preface this by saying that I am NOT nor have I EVER been a violent person. I've been in abusive relationships. I know how terrible it is.

On Friday night I came home from work and my girlfriend was having a drink. She started accusing me of flirting with one of my old friends, calling me a liar, crying, telling me that I'm fake, etc. After about 45 minutes of this I made the dumb decision to join her and open another bottle she had. I ended up getting preetttyyy drunk, tried to leave the house, etc. She had my keys and I wanted them, but she was refusing to give them to me (rightfully so). Well, one thing led to the next and somehow we ended up in tustle for the keys, and I bit her arm and gave her a black eye. I barely remember it happening, like very very vaguely. I feel awful, and I don't know if theres ever any coming back from that. If anything though, it has made me never want to touch alcohol ever again. Ever. I went to two meetings yesterday. I'm kicking this disease to the curb.

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I’ll say it again. Alcohol is evil in so many ways

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Drugs and alcohol make you do things you’d never imagine doing that’s why we have to try our best to stay away I myself struggle with addiction but inviting Jesus Christ in my life has helped one day at a time.

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Victoria, thanks for sharing. Reminds me of the countless nightmares in the drinking days. Finally I was done! I went to AA meetings daily, got sponsored and did the 12 steps thoroughly.
Almost 17 years of sobriety and it’s so worth it, just wish I’d done it sooner.
I’m here if you want to talk or have any questions