After 3 years clean I relapsed. Feeling extremely regretful and disappointed.
Now living as an recent empty nester, I guess I got bored of the same routine and felt lonely. I reached out to the wrong person knowing they were up to what I had left behind. Looking for a little excitement. After it was all over, it hit me on how far I have came and I let it all fall apart.
So here I go again. Tracking sober day 1.
Welcome back!
It’s ok. Keep asking for God’s help. 
I think the longer we are sober the fuzzier our addiction problems seem. Kind of like the pain of childbirth. 
It’s sounds like you caught on to your mistake so much quicker and are now back on track, so great job. Now keep taking a step at a time, latch on to positive people around you or online and continue your sober journey. Meet a friend to try out new classes and activities with. Libraries hold all kinds of cool adult classes for free great way to meet local community people.
Also, empty nest…I’ll live vicariously through you since I’ve clocked 18 yrs of parenting and still have at least 13 more to go until I’ve raised all of mine to adulthood. 
We learn from each of them, our ego wants to separate us from the solution, telling us lies. You made it back, you can find some gratitude in that. With each relapse, what I was searching for in drugs and alcohol just wasn’t there, it was different after I got a taste of sobriety but each one helped me believe it or not. Now I want to be free, not just get relief in sobriety, so I connect and contribute and have put some years between me and the last one. Your share helped me today in remembering that it is a temporary solution.
It’s ok, I did the same thing- except I was sober for a year and a half and have now been drinking on & off for the same amount of time. I do recommend you get back on track as soon as you can because it’s easy to be tricked into continuing on. There are lessons in relapsing, but how many more do we need? Already got sober for a reason. It’s easy to forget, but it’s never worth it.
Don’t beat yourself up DG. You just had a refresher course in awareness and accountability! Keep on keeping! An you’ll find that relationship that honors your sobriety!
One day at a time!
You still have those three years of sobriety in your life and you know you can do it. For the win!
Glad you are here. We aren't flawless. Keep moving forward
Ty. Your right about surrounding myself around positive people and now that I realized I messed up by reaching out to an old friend who was still down the path of old bad habits...i am find it hard to tell them to stay away without being rude.
I'll definitely look into the library stuff for classes to keep busy thank you.
It's funny cuz I also have a 14 year old but she's not around much. Another story there for another time but...just now I got a phone call that I'm needed which makes me feel good. I'm glad I'm all sobered up and able to engage in what she needs to be there for her.
Your 100% right. The relapse got me realizing and appreciating the sobriety I had. Glad my post helped you too. Being new to the group I was skeptical and even posting it.
Thank you heather you're right. I had never relapsed before because I was never clean. Experiencing an actual relapse was a definite lesson . I appreciate now the relation with my family the current friend I have my place my job being able to function. Being tired from a long working day is completely different from being tired from a relapse . It was definitely a lesson!
Ty so much Jay! Love that " a refresher course in awareness"
Thank you -you're right, now that I did that mistake I realized I did it was the worst decision I have made in forever. I'm already back on track knowing I can do it but to start from scratch is hard to take in.
Thank you- I love that "we aren't flawless". So true.
The setback is the setup for the comeback!
I'm glad you made it back. You didn't lose that time, you just learned a valuable lesson. You can do this. 
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Often relapse is part of the process 
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