I recently got out of the hospital for withdrawals. This is the fourth time I’ve had withdrawals and the doctor told me that there’s a stop sign in front of me on the other side of the stop sign is a 100 foot cliff if I don’t stop I’ll go over the cliff and die.
I’ve already had a cardiac arrest from hypothermia a few years ago and had frostbite. I had coded then and had no heartbeat and was technically dead.
I can’t continue on going with substance use disorder in my case alcohol and expect to live. And 59 years old and been drinking for probably 45 years.
I have not had any cravings yet because I still feel horrible physically from the withdrawal. My fear is I’ll start to feel good again and think, “I got this! “ The truth of the matter is I do not have this I do not got this. I will disable combat veteran and I will be going to an inpatient Veterans Affairs facility in Sheridan Wyoming.
