My family is enduring the process of truly understanding me and my problems. I don't want them to find about the severity of my addiction and how it came to effect my daughter and my opportunities in life. I can't go with them to Victoria this year, as no one can watch my daughter while I'm gone and Im working on getting back custody and I have a felony. Help me!!
Now the whole family is gonna know I got my child taken by DHS, I just know it! I've had nightmares about this and woken up unable to do anything but sob. Talking to a sponsor helps, and I'm in therapy now but I don't have my first appointment until the month after next! I don't know what to do.
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Zoe, God loves you. He wants you to give him your anxiety, fear, shame, guilt, disappointment. He wants you to sit with him daily, multiple times a day. Not just in prayer, not just at night before bed. Not just when you need him. But every moment of your life. Because that’s how he wants to be in your life, at every moment. Walk with him.
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Hello beautiful 
We addicts all know too well what you're feeling. The shame the guilt and the fear of being exposed for what the addiction has taken from us. Part of the journey to recovery isn't just being honest with ourselves but with those close to us. Put in the work and you'll come out on top. It won't be easy but with strong determination, acceptance, and accountability you'll get through this. You're not alone 
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Zoe, you’re definitely not alone. Many of us have had similar experiences and fears, including me. Doing the 12 steps, being completely honest, transparent and leaning into God and the sober community, staying sober no matter what helped me tremendously.
I had huge legal and family issues that I thought were not fixable. One step at a time and everything worked out.
I’m here if you want to talk or have any questions.
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Thank you, Danny!!
Many of us, especially addicts are intimately acquainted with shame guilt and remorse. I’ve had legal and family issues by the truckload, some of which I didn’t expect to make it through, but I did. Like the previous comments mentioned you’re not alone. Work the steps, surround yourself with with the right people. You’re heading the right direction. You’re going to get through this.
If they can't understand what you are trying to accomplish then fk em Zoe. You know what's best for you and your little one. You are making the hard decisions. You are sacrificing. You will get everything back x100 as long as you make the next right choices. Even the state can see this. I've been EXACTLY were your at. Stay sober, stay committed. It's all gonna be okay.
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So if they did find out and they would not forgive you. Why would you what they think. There is only one God and you did some bad inappropriate behavour when you got sick with the booze and drugs. But now you are changing your behaviour and focusing on this minute thus day. Not on some error you made in the past. This is where you find God not yesterdsy or tomorrow. You be honest with yourself and this higher power you have found. Be your best friend right this moment. Lying to others is what stupid people do and it gives others control over you. Only God should have that control. Be at peace one moment and one day at a time.
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Breath and trust the process
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Our shame and secrets kill us you can do this!
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You are blessed to be on a journey of spiritual growth and in your case rehabilitation of your own thoughts and processes. Honesty is the best medicine here. Don't project what you think is going to happen. You are in control of yourself. Not others. So projecting (imaging the outcome) is not the answer.
You are in the solution now. Keep working because you are worth it and all things done through your higher power is an opportunity for forgiveness and trust from outsiders in due time.
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I love this!!
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So true!!!
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