Sharing instead of drinking

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#1

I woke up this morning still carrying the weight of yesterday. The kind of exhaustion that isn’t just physical, it’s deeper than that. Lately I have been feeling something I can’t really put into words. Just this heavy, restless feeling sitting in my chest.

For the first time in a long while, the thought crossed my mind that a drink might make it all quiet down for a moment. That honestly scared me a little.

I have been sober for over a year now, and that is something I’m proud of. But today reminded me that sobriety doesn’t mean the voice of addiction disappears completely. Sometimes it just waits for moments when you’re tired, overwhelmed, or feeling alone.

A friend and colleague recently told me about Loosid, and I figured maybe the right thing to do right now is be honest about how I’m feeling instead of keeping it to myself. So this is me trying to do that.

I’m still here. Still sober. Just having one of those days where it feels harder than usual.

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#2

Raymond, welcome! Yeah my addiction/alcoholism is alive and well even after almost 17 years of sobriety. I do not take my sobriety for granted and I have a healthy respect for my addict ego. Cunning, powerful and baffling.
The 12 steps and constant service in the sober community helps me stay right in the head, especially in times of stress or crisis and even in times of celebration.
I’m here if you want to talk or have any questions.

#3

Welcome!!! I’m so new to sobriety, but I love this app and have met a lot of good friends even though we are all over the place! Keep your head up, it’s a good journey! :yellow_heart:

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#4

Welcome! We are glad you are here and we are here to support you when you need it. Keep going!

#5

Give yourself some credit you shared about it instead of going to relapse. I learned something very powerful. I never woke up after staying sober and regretting it, but I woke up many times after relapsing regretting it for a very long time. I have two brothers who died as a director result of this addiction so I want to encourage you by telling you to stay in recovery and don’t go back out

#6

Welcome to the group, we all have days where nothing seems to go right. Dealing with work, family, bills etc ...
When I start feeling like the world is putting to much on me, I go to my higher power and read some scriptures on peace etc.. Then I quote the scripture The just (righteous) shall live by faith (trust and believe) God is there to take away your burdens and gives you peace that surpasses all understanding. Hope this helps!!

#7

Well Im another addict who has only been sober for 5 n half months but best advice I can give u from what I say to myself yeah it might feel good at that precedent time but dear heart when that buzz goes away the issues ur trying to mask is still gonna be there regardless don't be afraid to smash the feelings head on it's the only way to accomplish what u strive for ...best hopes n prayers ur way