Why does relapse feel so defeating?
What are your thoughts?
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Thank you for your work and efforts on Loosis!
Relapse for me always felt so defeating because I knew EVERY time I resumed drinking it would not end well but I drank anyway! You stop, you get some time sober (years for me a few times!!!) And then something in your Brain tells you it will be better this time around. I should have stopped drinking when I was 15 and had a terrible experience. I was 59 and a half when I finally decided that no matter what, I would not drink. I had many relapses in 44 years and NOT ONCE was I able to drink normally. Of course, I had more terrible experiences in those 44 years as well. I was always honest about relapses AFTER the fact. Now my strategy is to ask my support network BEFORE I pick up if they think drinking is a good idea for me.
In 2, 504 days I have never relapsed. Lots of reasons why, but one is that i was afraid to relapse and what that would do to me. It takes a lot of hard hard work to get soberand I didn't want to lose that and let myself down. Trust me in those days I wanted to so many times I can't count them, but I can count how many times I didn't. All my reasons are non negotiables I will not, I cannot, and I have not. I wish you peace and clarity on your journey 