Should I be upset that my spouse has once again lied right to my face about his drinking? He is a chronic liar. He is also a alcoholic in denial. Staying sober with so many of his bottles in the house is difficult. I have asked him to keep the bottles outside, but he refuses to. He also is extremely narcissistic.
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Without knowing both sides, from what you put here there are several things that are not cool.
That's only a question you can answer
Ahhhh, sounds like a recipe for disaster for you. You asking an alcoholic to not use around you while they are in their full blown addiction never works. Sounds like some hard choices are in the future for you. And you are just starting your journey. Hope you can figure things out.
I know. I called a local AA friend yesterday, and he listened which helped because he knows the history of our marriage.
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Hope I can get it figured out. I am now 83 days sober. I can’t let this problem undermine my sobriety, I feel he wants me to fail. That means I have to be double duty on my reactions to this situation.
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Awww I’m so sorry. I’m dealing with the same thing. My plan is to focus on myself and take the best possible care of myself I can. You will get stronger and clearer and role model for him what you expect. I’ve learned that focusing on his drinking is a losing battle. I know it’s hard to watch and experience the delusion, but stay in your path and let him stay on his. Try to enjoy and celebrate your wise choices. Change the energy.
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These words are comforting, and also true. I am sure there are many marriages where one sobers up and the other one keeps drinking. I know alcoholic’s lie about their drinking, I used to do it all the time.
There’s the compassion that will serve you. When you’re feeling mad or betrayed just take a breath and pretend it’s you. And laugh. If you soften you will feel better. 
I would say a few things on this. First off it is human to be upset. You have that right and it is understandable. However, the nature of addiction is such that this would be a normal occurrence. If we see addiction as a disease then we must have compassion and patience with those who suffer from its symptoms. We would not be upset with an asthmatic for an attack, we would do all we can to help them recover.
Now the crux of the matter is this, are you in recovery and does his using endanger your recovery? Compassion is a tricky thing. I can have compassion on a drowning man, but as I cannot swim I cannot rescue him on my own.
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I am using all my tools, I am not going to relapse. But depression is very strong, as it is with quite a few of us. I need to see my counselor this week.
Some great responses above. This sounds like a very difficult situation. Your sobriety must come first. I know you are in early recovery, but perhaps adding some Al-Anon meetings might help? Maybe even 1 or 2 zoom Al-Anon meetings a week could help you deal with your issues at home. These meetings should be in addition to your own recovery program. You should always make sure you are doing your recovery program first. My suggestion is in addition, not a replacement. Stay strong. Sending you prayers 
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Thank you!