Argh.
I said it last night, not today.
And then we were out running errands and I felt so gross, I gave in.
And then I gave in again just because I already messed up.
And I'm so bored.
I'm bored high, im bored sober.
I honestly don't know how my partner doesn't know, he literally opened my glove compartment yesterday and saw one of my stashes.
I feel awful lying to him.
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the main point is that you're here with us.
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I am very bored as well. No drugs or alcohol. Bored and alone every day.. it's worth it
Once it took hold for my own reasons, boredom was always something that would trigger an excuse to have a drink and time of day didn’t matter. I would wake up “board”. For me it was an ambiguous way to give into the desire. After going through rehab I tried to rewire my focus on doing things that would occupy me and also things that if I wanted to do, having a drink prior or during would impact it like exercising.
Everyone is different, that’s just one of many coping mechanisms I tried to implement. But the key was understanding that I wasn’t drinking because I was board, it was just another in a stack of excuses I allowed myself to have.
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True that!