I have to change. Hiding my drinking, denying when I drink, losing the trust of my wife. My life is good and I’m afraid I’m going to lose everything. I’m tired of being sick and tired.
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Please do not give up, this disease is a demon that has a hold on us, but with the help of our Higher Power we will over come. You will over come. Fight like your life demand’s on it which it does. You reaching out and writing this mean you are ready and willing to fight and you are not going down.
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If your life is good, and youre sneak drinking will definitely aid in losing everything.
Admit to your wife what she probably already knows and get your a$$ to AA meetings. You haven't lost it all, yet.
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We are not as covert with “sneaking” as we think we are. Those who know us better than we know ourselves are just not saying anything.
I was in the same boat as you. Good life for the most part, a ton of “yets” but I saw it all slowly slipping away from me because of my own actions. “If you have the desire to stop drinking and are willing to go to any lengths to get it you are ready to take certain steps…”
Get to an AA meeting, or another program. You are in a spot that the bottom came up and hit you… that’s a lucky thing. The app, meeting guide will give you locations and times of meetings close to you. Walk in, sit and listen, share if you want to… the thing is only you can sit at the table, no one else can make you do it.
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Tread lightly. I admitted I needed help to beat this disease and after 33.5 years together- she left and said too little too late. Good luck. Either way- get help cause this disease will Jill you if you don’t stop it.
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Thank you. I just admitted to her about yesterday (she knew). This isn’t new, but this has to be last time. Feeling ashamed and embarrassed now. I’ve blown her trust yet again
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Thank you. I needed to hear that.
Our significant other will never fully understand this disease unless they themselves are an addict as well. Do the best you can.
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Seek treatment.
My story is/was the same. Here for you if you’d like to talk. Sending you a friend request.
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When I started this journey, a woman told me why do you think they call alcohol spirits? She said and they are not good ones.
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I think that's great advice!
Why alcoholics drink
Men and women drink essentially because they like the effect produced by alcohol. The sensation is so elusive that, while they admit it is injurious, they cannot after a time differentiate the true from the false. To them, their alcoholic life seems the only normal one. They are
restless, irritable and discontented
unless they can again experience the sense of ease and comfort which comes at once by taking a few drinks—drinks which they see others taking with impunity. After they have succumbed to the desire again, as so many do, and the
phenomenon of craving develops,
they pass through the well-known stages of a spree, emerging remorseful, with a firm resolution not to drink again. This is repeated over and over, and unless this person can experience an
entire psychic change
there is very little hope of his or her recovery.”
This psychic change is acquired by taking the 12 steps of Alcoholics Anonymous and getting to AA meetings.
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Alcohol: cunning, baffling, and powerful. I like to throw patient in the mix too!!
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Thank you all for the support . Starting day 3 and feeling good. Alcohol is definitely cunning, baffling and powerful. I’ve been doing one AA meeting per week but bumped it up this week to two. Prob need more. Must stay diligent. Let’s do this 
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Greg, i can totally relate with you. I am starting day 3 today.
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Hang in there. We can do this