So back in the Summer I had to go for

So back in the Summer I had to go for X-rays on my lungs then in September I went for a CT scan on my lungs and then in October I went for a second breathing test so last Friday my Doctor tells me the Doctors found some abnormalities so this Friday early in the morning after working all afternoon and night,I have to be at the hospital for a second CT scan. My Doctor said my lungs are permanently damaged. No puffers and inhalers will help. I also have to see a lung specialist. I've also been a heavy smoker for most of my life for the cigarettes and weed and in the past meth and other hard drugs plus I use to huff back in the day as well. I've tried 13 times to quit smoking over the years and I don't have it in me. I'm nervous,a little scared and stressed about it. It's all self inflicted but I also deal with dust,stuff that's on the car parts I'm also breathing in at work.

If your current health report from your medical staff doesn't convince you, I don't know what will.

It's not cancer so I'm lucky there. I can't afford to go to detox as I need to work because I can't afford not to and my job is highly stressful and mentally and physically demanding so I smoke more at work. I know I have health issues most men my age don't have and haven't had to have the tests I've had too young. I'm aging fast due to my past and there's more going on than I share.