I am 8 and a half days away from my 3 Years Sobriety from Meth and Opioids.. and my head is so heavy today it's all i want to do.. I pray to my higher power for the strength to carry on, the courage to persevere and reminding myself, just how horrible that fake truth of life I lived then truly was.. help..
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Hello Michael. The struggle is real, I've been there. When I struggle I remember it's a one day at a time thing and sometimes even smaller.
I also remember to tell on myself... In real life (the kids today say IRL) in a meeting. Someone close by that will approach me when I ask for help. I go to meetings to build relationships with people that have I want. These people hold me accountable and can see when I'm irritable and discontent.
Then there is my sponsor. He isn't my shrink, co-signer, nor dumping ground. He is someone that will call me on my poohp (Loosid doesnt like the correct spelling of it) and take time to see what my part is in the feeling.
My hope is that you have a network of people nearby to lean on. I can't do this alone.
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Don't give in Michael
Fast fwd the tape and you know how it plays out. Reach out to others in recovery you can talk to. 3 years is worth fighting for!
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I can relate. I try to remember how far I have come. It so hard sometimes. But you have done it for this long. You are capable! Sending good vibes and love your way! Don’t do it. Stay sober.
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So glad ur here!! Remember where you come from. My addiction wants me dead but ties it up with pretty ribbons. We can do hard things today!
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Yeah when I get close to a milestone I get weird thoughts too. It’s like I want to self sabotage all my efforts like I don’t deserve it! But I do and so do you cause we’ve suffered enough. Keep going I’m right behind you.
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Let the thought of those things make you sick. It's something that's worked for me. I now get genuinely sick to my stomach to think about my d.o.c.
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How are you today?
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I hear you brother! I am 1 day out from my 2 years and it seems it gets a bit tough around milestones. I try to keep in mind the feelings I had when I started this journey that led me to this journey.., one thing that always comes to mind is I made a promise to myself at that point, that I would do whatever it takes to better my life. You obviously decided at some point that was the case for you as well… whatever it takes man.. that’s what we do!
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Surviving.
Keep surviving brother. Step by step you can get to where you're thriving.
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