So close to just saying fu*k it.
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I get that feeling often...get to a meeting and get it off your chest!!!!
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Call your sponsor or another alcoholic. I’ve been stuck on self and ignored my sponsor for 4 days because I had a resentment towards him. They seem to say the opposite but the right thing. Hang in there!
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Break the relapse cycle Samantha! You know what they say, we are thinking about it and actually in relapse days before we actually pick up. Do something, reach out to someone in your sober support network, family, sober friends, meetings, anything. It's not easy, I know. 
Praying to give you strength!
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Read pg 417 big book then write down ten things ur greatful for
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All sound like good ideas, QUIT FOCUSING ON GETTING YOUR WAY!!
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Don’t do it! You know you’ll just regret it
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Hang in there
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Hang in there ! Sh*t can be hard at times but all u gotta do is stay sober today and worry about today .. tomorrow is a new day ….. u can do this
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Lots of good suggestions here in the comments. Calling someone with less time than you or who is struggling as well always helped me. There are tons of struggling people in meetings right now as we speak. Google online recovery meetings, log into one and just listen or share what’s going on with you, someone needs to hear it and might relate. We tend to think we are special and what we are going through, no one else has. I agree, saying f—k it it always our go to option but ask yourself a serious question, do you really think it’s going to work out better or make you feel better? I can tell you from experience its not going to do be the party you think it is. Try to seek the solution today, your mind is playing tricks on you.
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You’re worth so much more than that.
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Say it. Say it out loud. Scream that $h-t if you have to - but say it for "f-it" to the feelings that you CAN'T do it. Bc you can. You definitely can beat this.
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Yes we get discouraged from time to time but I don’t know anyone who deserves a life that is happy joyous and free. No matter what you think or feel, you’re worthy of the life you want to have.
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I can tell you from my experience that solution won't work.
The thing I find mostly on this app is that many people are running on shear willpower. There's a program out there that was designed by alcoholics for alcoholics and very rarely does it not work for people trying to remove the obsession to drink as long as they are doing what is suggested. That program is called Alcoholics Anonymous.
You sound very frustrated. You used to drink and or do drugs to remove the pain. At least temporarily. Now you have stopped but the pain remains. So what are you going to do about this.
Because if you're not into the solution that was originally designed for alcoholics you're probably going to end up going back out there one way or the other. I have seen this over and over again.
Get to some meetings and learn what the solution is and it will make it so much easier to deal with life one day at a time without picking up a drink or drug.
And remember, F### it never works.
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I think we have all said that at least a few times but then the reality of dying hits me square in the face. Just reach out because quitting is definitely not a good idea. Go to meetings, reach out like you just did. If you really wanted to give up you wouldn’t have reached out here. You can do this one day at a time. You should get yourself a recovery team.
Bottom line you don’t want to die from this believe me not fun, I watched it first hand with my brother and dear friend. Please don’t give up. 
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There's some good advice in this thread. Was it helpful?
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Thank you everyone. Just here to say I’m still on track.
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