I’m trying this again, I seem to consistently fail at sobriety! AA makes me feel bad as a person, consistently through the literature says we’re bad people. I can’t seem to find a higher power! Life is pointless
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Hey, just keep trying ! You’re not a bad person, you have an addiction.. I try to give myself the compassion and understanding I would gladly give to a person I love..
We must have different big books. Our stories are what inspire me. Until I humbled myself and admitted I'm powerless alone, it didn't work. You need to be around like minded sober people who encourage and inspire you. God bless you
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Thank you everyone for the encouragement
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AA isn't for everyone. I did an IOP and then met one on one with a counselor. I Still stay in touch with her 2 years later. You can do it, you'll find the right path. Stay with it!
Come to secular AA meetings!
Not everyone likes it, but I have benefited from Alan Carr's quit drinking without willpower book. That's how I quit, and I go to AA for fellowship and working steps for personal development.
Have you tried a few different meetings to see if there's one you like?
I can relate with the sentiment of feeling like a bad NA / AA member .
I love the fact that i made great friends but i had to step away after being denied my 1st year because some old school Hardcore member found out i was prescribed Vyvanse and called it Met from a doctor . That crushed me , my sponsor left me as well. But the good news is that in fellowship just like in life . I personally had to set serious boundaries ( because all recovery are a different journey. I found a lot of comfort in “smart recovery” and Dharma recovery and i encourage you to try different approaches and it allowed me to “ tailor “ my recovery with what works best for me . Hope this helps 
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You, on your best day, that's a great higher power. You on your worst day, you need help, sober peers to get you through and back into your higher self. AA homies are like gurad rails. We bounce ideas off eachother and do the best we can. Forget all the religious gobbledygook that tells you you're an imperfect piece of garbage who will always be such. That's nonsense and AA doesn't even say that, the religious people in AA translate things as such, sometimes. AA helps us to change our life's direction and to not let the past drag us down. Let it go, throw the past away like garbage. Religion teaches you that you are not worthy, that everything you receive is from the mercy of (pick your god) AA teaches you to work for a better life.
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I haven’t tried anything other than AA, going to do some research on alternatives to AA
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Hello Maureen. I went to my 1st meeting about 2 years after quitting and after introducing myself and telling them how long I’ve been sober some dummy decided to ask me what took me so long to attend and I replied my therapist requested me to come. I had the will power to quit. I went the next day and everyone there was giving me that look like I was lying. So I waited a couple weeks and went to another location and it was almost kinda same vibe to where they couldn’t believe it took me so long. But got a little better and attended a few more times. But to be honest I didn’t need it and still don’t. I’m doing great. Work every day lost 50 pounds got a gym membership eat healthy got a couple hobbies going. You hang in there. You can do this just have some support from family and friends that understand you are sober and they will understand you no longer need alcohol in your life. Stay happy and safe it will work out for you.. Paul..
Courage!!!