But at the same time there's so much guilt and regret. Exactly like every other time I have gotten clean. I know the solution would be forgive myself AND anyone I haven't forgiven like my mom as much as I don't want to. I know my sobriety depends on it, but how does that work? I know I need those things but how do you ACTUALLY do them? I honestly don't know, I never have, or understood anything about forgiveness I used to never forgive anyone for anything. Little frustrated but STILL clean and sober! Happy for that because that's huge.
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Have you done a fourth/fifth step ?. That helped me a lot.
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I don't even have a sponsor. So no I haven't even started the steps.... BUT I was thinking why couldn't I do the steps without one? The only requirement is a desire to stop drinking, so sounds like I can to me. But I'm not super into the 12 steps anyway so... There's that.
You can do whatever you like. My experience and many others is walking through the steps with someone who has done them before is really helpful. There’s a certain way to do them. I don’t know where I’d be without my sponsor.
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Yeah I just have been debating that whole thing for a long time sorry for coming off sounding rude I apologize very much. I appreciate the input
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