So I called my biological mother this morning to check up on her and my step Dad like I do here and there on my day's off and she made the same excuse to get off the phone with me once I started to open up about my episode that feels never ending. Wanda was never really a mom to me ever. She is an alcoholic and she badly abused me physically and other ways and in North Bay she allowed my first step Dad to abuse me and make me watch porn with him while he fiddled himself while she was out. She never stopped him from choking me out at 13. Her and my Dad are huge reason's to my PTSD. Wanda left when I was 12 for a guy before Peter. Wanda was and still is in and out of my life. She allowed my 2nd step Dad to abuse me. She never stopped a guy from sexually touching me before my 2nd step Dad. She never even protected me from my Dad. I've given her too many chances to be a mom and I have to accept the fact that she's never gonna change. She also wants me to be her spy towards my biological kid sister and no...f*ck no. I'm not getting in the middle. I have my mental health,my job and this new life to focus on. Mentioning my kid sister....she ratted me out to the cop's year's ago and I did 5 months in jail. I don't trust Ashley and I definitely don't trust Wanda. I got arrested too many time's for protecting Ashley from harm since I was 8 year's old. I risked life,death and jail for her since she was 5 year's old. I gave her a safe space to drink and smoke weed when she was 18. I moved back to Owen Sound from Niagara Falls to help her out with my nephew in 2014 and I helped her out financially,she stayed a year after our Dad passed away in 2008 and sacrificed relationships and worked,raised her,took care of my step mom,finished highschool some how and I did it all alone too young. My childhood was robbed of me,my teen hood was robbed of me. I've had to be an adult too young too fast. Never really had my parents,just myself.
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God carried yu and still is
No offense but I carried myself. I don't believe in God