So i came into recovery again with a girl and when i relapsed we split. She ended up relapsing too and started talking again when i was 3 months sober. She said she was trying again and had a couple weeks then just stopped responding. I found out today she had passed away and i was one of the last people she talked to. I left work and went straight to a meeting and shared. I honestly want a bottle because i don't want to feel what I'm feeling but i know it won't make the pain go away, itll only destroy what ive spent all this time rebuilding. I pray for her soul and her daughter. And i refuse to drink over this.
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I’m so sorry you’re going through this! You’re so strong for bringing yourself to a meeting and posting on this app- you’re absolutely taking the right steps to grieve in a healthy way using community and support. Hang in there, keep doing what you know is right and allow yourself to process this loss! Let yourself feel all those feelings!
@jordan263489 it's ok to mourn it's not worth drinking over. No person, place or thing is worth drinking over.