So i caved and gave in again. Went on a

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#1

So i caved and gave in again. Went on a little bender - to the point things started going south fast. A pattern ive had for many years..
Stopped myself though! Went to a MAT dr yesterday and got some meds to help me quit.
Ive GOT to figure this out. For me. For my family. For my LIFE.
I dont really have friends or a community in any form - so just airing out my brain...

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#2

I completely understand where you’re coming from. One foot in front of the other.
I don’t have anyone I talk to either if you want to connect.

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#3

Pray pray and pray :pray: and believe what you :pray: for and it will come to pass.

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#4

Totally understand. I’ve lost count of how many times I’ve tried to “cut back” Or just have a few once in a great while. And I’m fine the first time and I think ok I can do this..the problem is the next day/ time doesn’t end up happening the way I planned…and the cycle repeats itself. I’m trying to figure it out as well. It’s not easy. The kicker for me is when I haven’t had any for a few days after the last drink I feel like doing nothing. Not even drinking. Just bored, indecisive etc. But then after those first few days I’m fine. I feel better.
I’ve tried to find other things to do like cook(making food from scratch) etc. baby steps. Currently I’m 2 months drink free.

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#5

Proud of you! Stopped the spiral before it got out of control.

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#6

I hope so!