So... I got royally scammed by a shipping company and burglarized. The loss was about $40,000. Initially- rage set in, self pity. Couldn't sleep last night. I'm up super early. And I see the clock hits 5:55. Ah angel number! I look it up. Basically changes/ transitions are happening in your life right now and you have to get with the program and help this process go smoothly, stay positive and accept the change and in the end there will be a positive outcome (Im paraphrasing). My whole outlook flipped! Like whoa! I got to thinking!... I am so blessed!! I have God ( well the Holy Trinity in my belief), mother Mary, all the saints, AND my angels constantly looking out for me! This is incredible! You know what? These scam artists... they need my prayers, because there is no way they are intentionally harming people constantly and aligned with a Higher Power or the Universe and to me a life without my HP if no life at all! Ohh I have so much gratitude! Ok pray then gratitude list then extra long prayer. And oh boy was this a gratitude prayer and a prayer for these poor lost souls. I was in tears because I feel so incredibly blessed that my dear sweet FATHER and SAVIOR created me with a loving heart that would never do such a thing to others and I wept for these people thinking of the weight they have to carry with them every day because I know guilt and shame! I'm a drunk! The last 6 years of my life have been so so so sad. I'm crying writing this. The extreme lows and inadvertently hurting people I love so much just because I would go missing for soo long! The deep dark depression that I couldn't pull myself out of. Not being able to even shower. My goodness, getting up to use the bathroom felt like running a marathon. And today I sit in gratitude because I know that that is not who I am! And that is not who God created me to be! That is not what makes up my heart and my soul! And in all these years my loving God has never EVER left my side. There was NEVER an option of giving up because He was there. Oh my goodness, I'm overflowing with so much gratitude right now I'm going to burst. Talk about perspective. I'm sending a million hugs and blessings and prayers to all of you beautiful and brave sober warriors!!! 
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That's an amazing outlook of the situation Traci! Thank you for sharing your daily gratitude with us!
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Also used to get through that it seems are amazing. You're a strong person and I'm impressed with it how you dealt with that. Thank you for sharing
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Everybody is constantly going through change. That's the only consistent part of living. I don't think the time has anything to do with that either.
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