So I have 3 weeks clean from drugs and today was the first time I had thoughts of getting high. Byvthe grace of God I remain focus on what I had to do today due to the fact I work 6 days a week. I feel I must share where I am because I am only as sick as my secrets and I cant recover alone. So in my addiction I had called myself a rock star cause I didnt play with my beast(addiction) so when I copped I was big spender. So know that I am clean I keep money in the bank as well as my pocket. But what I came to realize today I may have another addiction. So when I first got clean and had thoughts of getting high I went to Macy and bought my own first real chain of jesus on the cross. I felt good about it cause all the money I spent on drugs I had nothing to show for it and now I do. Then today I went to buy some work pants and as soon as my beast was in my ear and on my back I walked in a jewelry store and bought me a ring. Which made me feel good but when I got home I start feeling like my drug addiction rolled over to jewelry shopping addiction. Now is this true or is this my addiction trying to convince me that cause I am not spending the money on drugs. So one please let me know.
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