So I haven't been on in a while. I guess I felt ashamed. Found out I need a valve in my heart replaced and have a very bad blood infection. No clue where it came from but the first thing I did after crying was so a shot of vodka. That shouldn't be an excuse but it's mine. I'm not going crazy with it or anything, but I feel like. If I've done nothing wrong and I could die soon. Why not enjoy? Thoughts
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IS using really enjoyable and this operation is not going to kill you unless you are 90. So sober up and get the card to live through this procedure booze never made anything good.
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Or better.
Give yourself the grace to recover. You can get back on the sober track right away. Using will only make every situation worse including heart issues, surgery, recovery from surgery etc Life is better with you in it. Keep your head up. This too shall pass. Hit me up anytime if you want to chat, vent or whatever. No judgement.
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Laura, my prayers of healing and freedom are with you 
. Thank you for sharing your experience with us. Fred and Nikki are both very correct. Sober is the easier and softer way.
I’m here if you want to talk or have any questions
Laura. Just remember a drink is not gonna help that heart valve.. my lady got sick back in August by mid November she was gone. She died because of her late age alcoholism trying to get sober. Her poor little body just couldn’t bounce back anymore. Ironically, I blew a bunch of years of sobriety and jumped right back into the bottle by the beginning of February 2026. I was suicidal one night after polishing off half gallon. I tried to take my own life. Didn’t work I’m here talking to you. That relapse was the most pivotal part in my recovery make that shot of vodka the last one! My relapse showed me where I was failing in my recovery. Failing myself. I still had reservations. I thought there were options. I was just coasting doomed to drink again. Thought I had a good reason. Just don’t drink do all the meeting stuff work the steps have a Sponser. I have six service commitments at my own group. I go to the CSO this Friday. I’m trying to hang with a buddy of mine every week. He goes to the CSO. He’s been doing that for 12 years. No wonder he’s sober and he’s battling serious health problems. One of them is cancer. Two of my other friends in my Home Group lost their significant others and they didn’t drink. There is hope surrender to God and the program of Alcoholics Anonymous… the world will be yours.