So I'm Depressed But At The Same Time Ashamed Over What I Did. My Days Of Sobriety Are Zero. I Relapsed Today Again I Don't Know What I'll Do. I Don't Know If I Really Give a Phuck At All. I Must Care I Obviously Do But I Just Haven't Felt Something or Anything In a While.
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Don’t give up, don’t ever give .. I relapsed after 15 plus years.. I almost have 4 months .. you can do it. It’s one day at a time !!
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This isn’t about ur post this is coming from what ur profile told me as a read it and u are trying I get that n it seem like life won’t be any better then what it is but I swaer that not true ship if she told u that she didn’t out of she didn’t or she love u that much that she dont want to hurt. Any ways but bro all this can change but like u said already u want to so u have to not her. My wife cheated on me so many time n trust me so have I a lot more then she had me u shloudnt worry about her cheating u need to worry about the connection emotionally then anything because one thing that is true ones she give up on u she is walking out of ur life and that from what I read Dosent look good for u cuz then u losing all hope and ur kids witch I know u want to change for them with out questing it. But u need to accept who u are man n get more help then just this app even tho I’m not a pro at this I just know I can’t ship or won’t use 1 time cuz it’s not going to change anything beside fick my life up. I’m more then will to be there for u but I try to stay alway from relapse conversations cuz I call them Hatchew ( excuses) even tho I have my Hatchew already on stand by because I don’t know how I will deal with losing my wife or kids if GOD take them alway but every other fight I accepted and waiting on that’s (WWFM) what work for me. Take responsibility for ur actions take the steps to do whatver u need to to stop if that what u really want before u lose everthing u need that going to keep u clean n focus ur wife and kids need the person they love not the person who been making them suffer for years
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Wow Bro What You Said Is True. I Know n Understand About How My Wife's Affair Is a Consequence Of Me Not Being There. My Addiction Has Taken Hold Of Me It's Taken Over My Life. I Didn't Give a Phuck What Happened Toto Me. I Was Blinded By My Drug Use n My Wife's Affair. However I Recently Been Contimplating How The Phuck Did I Let My Dream Morph Into The Nightmare It Is Today. I Also Get What You're Saying About Me Not Taking Responsibility For The Bad Things That Have Happened Thus Far. I Dropped The Ball Bro My Bad. Not Only Did I Neglect Myself, I Neglected My Family. My Drug Use Consumed Me Did Me In. I'm Waking From My Slumber n Am Trying Clean House. I Know It's Going To Be Long n Hard Road To Recovery. I Wanted To Thank For Having Taken The Time To Give Advice. I'm Going To Take It To Heart n Keep On Trying. I Honestly Am Taking My Wife's Cheating Really Hard. I Also Have To Aknowledge That Although I Didn't Cheat I Had a Part To Play I'm Her Decisión. I Also Won't Lie That I There Are Times Where I Don't Want To Go On. However For Some Reason Or Another I Somehow Pull Through n Make It Through. Once Again Thank You For Your Encouraging Words.
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Just care man that all n it’s help me to help u
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I been trying for years not giving up 15 days
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Matt is right If you want to stop using you will stop using. If you are ready and you been beaten down and your life has become unmanageable you will seek help and want to stop. I wanted to stop every single day and couldn't until I just did it. You have to do it and then work to not pick it back up again everyday after that. I was so beaten and miserable and lost everything I loved when I finally came around and got clean. If you still have stuff to lose don't let that be you. I thought I'd be dead before sober. And now my life is so much better. It really does get better. Just really think about it because you sound like you are broken. It's time to get clean for your sake before you lose everything that matters to you. But the decision is ultimately yours my friend
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Thank You Jessica Both Matt You n Everyone Else That Has Commented or Will Comment. I Am Beaton Down Broken Into Submission. I've been getting HIGH since I was 16. I Prefer Being Awake Than Sleeping. Why Well I Have Really Bad Nightmares I Mean Really Bad One's. The Kind You Wake Screaming Wanting To Cry Kind Of Night.ares. I Was 2 Yrs But I Didn't Take Care Of My Sobriety n I Relapsed. I've Been Trying To Get Back But Haven't Been Able To. I've Been Through Some Traumatic Events n Have Used Every One As An Excuse To Get HIGH. You're Right About Some Things Jessica I am Tired I've Been Tired. I Have Got To Snap Out Of This. I Keep Trying Today's No Different. Thank You Once Again.