So ... I've avoided this app for awhile now because I thought that this platform was just for recovering alcoholics ...Not that there's anything wrong with recovering alcoholics at all .... It just doesn't completely register with what I need. But, after reading some of the posts... I've realized that I DO relate with a lot of people on here. I am 130 days sober from fentanyl and meth. Mostly fentanyl....that was my DOC. Completely sober actually ... For the first time in 10 years. It's good most of the time ... But, sometimes it's really. Really. Difficult. And lonely. Like today . It's not for the weak.... That's for sure.
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I totally get that. I've had it for a while and just got into it. Congratulations on your clean time! Those are rough substances to deal with getting off! 
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Thank you so much !! That means a lot to me !! Maybe we can hold each other accountable staying active on this app lol ! JK jk 
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Hey welcome back Josy! Your past reminds us why it’s so important to share. This is how recovery works, when one person shares their story, it gives someone else the courage to do the same. The opposite of addiction is connection.
130 days sober is huge, seriously, that’s something to be proud of. 
I get what you mean about the difficulty and the loneliness. Just keep showing up here, keep posting, and connecting. It really does help more than we realize.
There’s a ton of support right in the app, resources, also podcasts are great. Keep showing up, proud of you
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Keep up the good work! I was a pain pill and fentanyl user for a long time during that time I was on coke as well when I got interduced to meth it was over it consumed me but here ppl put fentanyl in everything.. I was 11 when I started using… when I decided to get clean in January it was because last July and September I got pulled over by the same officer July was just a drug related dui September he raid my car I got a drug related dui and a list of charges only a paraphernalia charge stuck in January of this year the cops busted through my door for a bench warrant for failure to appear on my ex bf searched my house illegally. At that point I made my mind up I was done with that life those so called friends. Because in the first time in my life I was having problems with the law and the drug world brought cops to my house and I got evicted. So in January in Pennsylvania is cold as heck I had 1 year old pit lab mix pup and my bf went to jail. So now it is just me and the pup homeless in middle of winter in Pa since that time I found out for the dui at plea court I’m looking at 93 days in jail 2.5 years of no driver licenses. I lost my job because I take care of the elder and younger ones with intellectual disabilities and certified threw my stat to pass meds with drug charges I lost my certification and my cna.
My dad reminds every day that I go to bed sober is an accomplishment so keep pushing forward and climbing that ladder. Stay positive and in the moment. I’m always here reach out.. I am waiting on sentencing court… I have faith in you. The first 3-4 months was hard for me but I knew I wanted better still know that… for me my biggest struggle or trigger is my own head…
#OneDayAtATime
#YouGotThis
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Don't ever look back. Keep your head held high and don't let no one bring you down either. And honestly I couldn't care about the alcoholic closed meeting garbage. Most of the AA meetings around me are learning to change. The separation of alcohol from anything else is the same as saying we are not like you or better than you. That is far from the case. Alcohol is extremely dangerous and it happens to be a liquid. Codeine is a liquid but an opiod. Methamphetamines can be liquids and inhaled at the same time or ingested.
You're doing good just making a day out of sobriety from those two alone. I struggled with meth for the past 5 years and fentynol the last year combined. In 5 days I will have made it 7 months. That is something no one saw coming. My family paid for my entire funeral last year. My ex wife divorced me and started living as I was dead already agreeing with my family that I couldn't possibly recover from it. Here I am. Recovering. Don't say you dont know if you can do this. Say you will do this no matter what it takes and be adaptive every single day. Be malleable as much as possible so you are better equipped to handle everything that comes with being sober. Don't forget. People will not understand your pain. They aren't supposed to. Don't feel sorry for yourself and pick yourself up each day and say I will get through this. Because you truly can do it.
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Welcome! 
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It's already helped sooo so much ... I truly appreciate what you said and the people on here !!
It sounds like you and me have A LOT in common Amber. Like , it was crazy reading your comment because I related to most of it . I had police issues and them coming to my house...my ex going to prison for 13 years and I got evicted with my pets. Except for me, it was my cat's. It's a horrible feeling. I was on the streets having to do the most.... It's also nice to talk to another previous fentanyl addict. I love love love that your dad tells you that , my parents are also very proud of me for being sober now. Keep in touch !! I think we could help each other !
You have NO IDEA how helpful that was !! My family also told me that they've made peace with my death ... I mean , they said it forever ago while I was using. They say that you're not supposed to get sober for anyone else but yourself ... And I did ... But sometimes , other motivations like family and the hurtful things that they've said (rightfully so , I guess . In my case) can also be huge motivators. I've always been rebellious by nature.... It was nice to channel that into rebelling against the fact that no one thought that I could ever be anything else besides an addict. Your comments have already been so helpful and I really appreciate it !!
I’m glad I could help. I know what it’s like to have a family be like that but after 31 years I want better and now I have walked away from my family because I can’t stand the negative thoughts and energy that comes from them my dad and daughter are the only family that talks to me and support
I ended with smoking Fetty on foil. Those "fake perc 30 blues"!
I had to try it and tried those hot rails , did all that in Florida actually. I'm now in rehab in LA since the beginning of August,so no you're not in the wrong place