So ive been sober for 5 years all together ive had 2 relapses in that time its been almost 3 years since my last one ig my main problem or struggle ig is that the only way it works for me to stay sober is i go no ware and meet no one cus when i do sooner rather than later i pick up and not even that i feel like im still walking around on day 3 of a bad one (if yk yk ) seems like everyone is staring at me or "in on it"in some way dont get me twisted ik its my mind that messing with me but i gotta wonder dose it fet better or am i just shot out ?
Five years is no small thing, and that strength shows even through the struggles. It sounds like you’re carrying a lot, and it’s tough when your mind starts playing tricks on you. You’re not alone in feeling this way, it does get better, but it takes time and the right support. Keep holding on and don’t be afraid to reach out when it feels heavy. You’re doing more than you realize just by staying in the fight.
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James, hang in there it gets easier and better. For me, I needed to be around recovering addicts that understood me and didn’t judge harshly.
Doing the 12 steps with sponsors multiple times was and still is a tremendous help.
I’m here if you want to talk.
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