So many of my experiences were drunken experiences

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#1

Experiencing the places and activities, where we were always drunk or high before, are almost brand new to us. That's the hardest times to not use/drink. It's like learning who we really are.

Being a drunk was such a part of who I was, sometimes I'm not sure who I am without it. It's also making me question why I'm friends with some of the people I'm friends with. I never took myself or my value seriously before, so I surrounded myself with like-minded people. By which I mean people who don't take me seriously. My alcoholism was kind of a joke to most of them, as it was to me.

Since my meds have been keeping my depression and anxiety under control, the desire to self-medicate with alcohol has been, overall, quite low, but activities and places can still trigger urges.

I just wanted to get these thoughts out. Thanks for reading.

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#3

All of those feelings and thoughts have run through most of our minds as well. I remember the first time I golfed after getting sober… it was terrible. I felt like it was the first time I was swinging a club, and all I was thinking is I need a beer to do this. It gets better and easier… and a lot more fun to be honest.

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#4

I was just talking about this the other day!

I'd literally never been to any beach sober until the last 2 weeks. It was shocking, just how wonderful it was. And now that I'm not drinking, I can actually deal with the heat and get to experience all the junk I was too hammered for.

The not taking you seriously part really hits home for me.

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